i am pissed

pissed like hell till i can feel the blood in my brain and body is boiling vigorously..

i don't care whoever reads my blog.. i just wanna express out my feelings..

i was so mad at goh for smacking me hard on my forehead and he can even still pretend that it was not a big deal.. yes, i admit i was wrong for smacking him hard and poking him constantly.. i have to be blamed somehow.. but smacked me hard on my forehead till my specs flew off and landed on the table???? hah!!! how do you feel if you were me??? FUCKING PISSED!

i was sooooo pissed at him i don't even want to look at him after that. to make things even worse, he uttered out "do you want it somemore?" fuck you man.. fuck you..

i bet he doesn't even realise how that HURT my feelings..

hahaha..

he thought this is all a joke afterall..merely fun wei.. =D hahahahhaaha XD

i would never think that's a joke, unfortunately..

oh well.. it all depends on how i am able to manage my anger so that i would be able to talk back with him..

ok.. done with him..

after school, we were supposed to have a short meeting for the upcoming orientation for lower sixers. i am in charged of the orientation so i was looking forward to divide the jobs for the rest of the members, tell them what we were supposed to do on that day, what kind of games that we can organize for them and so forth.. while i was speaking halfway, hahaha.. i was being interrupted.. and since then, i've never got the chance to SPEAK at all.. yeah.. great.. i was being neglected.. ignored.. even when i tried to VOICE out my ideas, i was IGNORED again.. yes, i am pissed.. add together with the incident that happened in the morning, i was burning with anger..

i got ignored the first time and i feel it's okay since EVERYONE thinks my idea SUCKS.. fine.. i accept it.. but when i tried to VOICE out for the second time, again ppl IGNORE me. i couldn't manage my anger anymore and hence, i burst out my temper by smacking hard on the table and uttered out "can you all listen to me?"

do i deserve all these huh??? what is wrong with my luck today that i have to face this kind of thing?????????

it seriously cuts a deep wound in my heart that i am being treated this way by ppl.. i don't think i deserve this... NEVER...

i am still pissed and i don't know how long i will take to be able to curb my anger..

2 seriously heartbreaking incidents happened on the very same day.. it is not cool at all..

i am still upset..

gtg... bye..