i am trying

why are ppl showing me their temper today??

what have i done??

even my mum is showing me her temper today.. as though i'm all to be blamed???

why is that??

why is it so difficult for ppl to forgive and forget when i can actually do forgive and forget about everything that has happened??

i'm so impressed with myself sometimes i can just pretend NOTHING has happened even though SOMETHING HURTFUL did happen. i can still pretend i'm totally ok about it.. so why don't you??

why do i have to be blamed all the time? why is that??

everything happens for a reason.. but i have no idea why god lets this kind of thing to happen in my life.. probably it's just a test for me to make sure that i've learned how to control my temper and emotions and words now.. guess i've not entirely pass god's test huh?? well, it takes time for a person to change, isn't it??

it's not that i'm not trying.. i am indeed trying very hard to change myself already.. trying very hard not to be oversensitive on something really minor, trying not to lose my temper in front of ppl and etc.

it's really sickening sometimes that i've got to take all the blame.. as though i'm born with the word "punching bag" on my head..

stupid..