lol.. transformers' really good! i went to watch it last friday with my fellow classmates.. haha.. too bad i missed a few minutes of the movie.. zzz.. that time i couldn't resist myself from the cold and i wanted to do something really urgent so.... well..
wanted to watch again yday and today and damn it. as expected.. it's either full house or the seats are just far too front and your neck will definitely break if you're watching from that angle.. so.. well.. next week only watch la lol...
i love the sound track from transformers!! new divide by linkin park.. very cool song.. and addictive hahaha.. until my uncle asked me why keep on listening to the song again and again.. lolzz.... =.=
and megan fox is superbly sexy.. like hell.. no.. i aint a lesbian.. but seriously.. she's hot like hell.. ya ya.. i'm jealous like hell too.. lol..
bumblebee is cute!! i love bee!! bee, i love u!! he's so strong and so protective and loving!! gosh~ how can we not fall in love with bee right??=D
i wanna watch again!! yay!! couldn't wait!!! next week!! transformers again!! wee~~ heheheh.. bye!!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
guess my luck is just bad afterall
i had enough bad luck last week. i wanted to forgive and forget about everything that had happened. they've been such a bad memories but oh well.. what can i say but to learn how to be a forgiving and a patient person..
yday it was the orientation for the lower sixers.. the orientation would be perfect. if and only if we are allowed to run it longer rather than just having less than 1 hour to conduct all the games.. received destructive comments from both teachers and students.. saying that we do not have proper time management and so on.. sigh~ what do you expect? it's not even our fault as we never expect teachers would take so much time to talk nonsense during the assembly and thus used up our time.. sigh~~
one particular teacher is pointing finger at me.. saying i'm all to be blamed.. saying i'm not supposed to let the rest of the members to come out with the games.. which means i actually have to do ALL the plannings and the games and so on.. and the rest of the members are supposed to accept my order.. she made it sound like it's so simple.. well, it's always easier said than done right????
does the teacher seriously think i have so much time to come out with 10 games for 10 different checkpoints?? does the teacher seriously think the rest of the members wouldn't hate me if i dominate all the work ALL by myself???
i just don't wanna get myself into trouble.. i've got enough of receiving criticism by some random ppl that i'm obsess of power and saying that i'm trying to take over corina's post as a president.. gosh~~ why ppl's mouth can be so mean?? sigh~
i'm so tired of all these shit...
when will i have the luckiest day of my life?
i had enough of bad days.. out you go, bad luck!!! get out of my life!!!
yday it was the orientation for the lower sixers.. the orientation would be perfect. if and only if we are allowed to run it longer rather than just having less than 1 hour to conduct all the games.. received destructive comments from both teachers and students.. saying that we do not have proper time management and so on.. sigh~ what do you expect? it's not even our fault as we never expect teachers would take so much time to talk nonsense during the assembly and thus used up our time.. sigh~~
one particular teacher is pointing finger at me.. saying i'm all to be blamed.. saying i'm not supposed to let the rest of the members to come out with the games.. which means i actually have to do ALL the plannings and the games and so on.. and the rest of the members are supposed to accept my order.. she made it sound like it's so simple.. well, it's always easier said than done right????
does the teacher seriously think i have so much time to come out with 10 games for 10 different checkpoints?? does the teacher seriously think the rest of the members wouldn't hate me if i dominate all the work ALL by myself???
i just don't wanna get myself into trouble.. i've got enough of receiving criticism by some random ppl that i'm obsess of power and saying that i'm trying to take over corina's post as a president.. gosh~~ why ppl's mouth can be so mean?? sigh~
i'm so tired of all these shit...
when will i have the luckiest day of my life?
i had enough of bad days.. out you go, bad luck!!! get out of my life!!!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
i am trying
why are ppl showing me their temper today??
what have i done??
even my mum is showing me her temper today.. as though i'm all to be blamed???
why is that??
why is it so difficult for ppl to forgive and forget when i can actually do forgive and forget about everything that has happened??
i'm so impressed with myself sometimes i can just pretend NOTHING has happened even though SOMETHING HURTFUL did happen. i can still pretend i'm totally ok about it.. so why don't you??
why do i have to be blamed all the time? why is that??
everything happens for a reason.. but i have no idea why god lets this kind of thing to happen in my life.. probably it's just a test for me to make sure that i've learned how to control my temper and emotions and words now.. guess i've not entirely pass god's test huh?? well, it takes time for a person to change, isn't it??
it's not that i'm not trying.. i am indeed trying very hard to change myself already.. trying very hard not to be oversensitive on something really minor, trying not to lose my temper in front of ppl and etc.
it's really sickening sometimes that i've got to take all the blame.. as though i'm born with the word "punching bag" on my head..
stupid..
what have i done??
even my mum is showing me her temper today.. as though i'm all to be blamed???
why is that??
why is it so difficult for ppl to forgive and forget when i can actually do forgive and forget about everything that has happened??
i'm so impressed with myself sometimes i can just pretend NOTHING has happened even though SOMETHING HURTFUL did happen. i can still pretend i'm totally ok about it.. so why don't you??
why do i have to be blamed all the time? why is that??
everything happens for a reason.. but i have no idea why god lets this kind of thing to happen in my life.. probably it's just a test for me to make sure that i've learned how to control my temper and emotions and words now.. guess i've not entirely pass god's test huh?? well, it takes time for a person to change, isn't it??
it's not that i'm not trying.. i am indeed trying very hard to change myself already.. trying very hard not to be oversensitive on something really minor, trying not to lose my temper in front of ppl and etc.
it's really sickening sometimes that i've got to take all the blame.. as though i'm born with the word "punching bag" on my head..
stupid..
Thursday, June 18, 2009
i feel much better
after crying out loud.. indeed it helps.. =D
all the stress.. burden.. have been washed away by the tears..
hope for a better tmr.. =D
all the stress.. burden.. have been washed away by the tears..
hope for a better tmr.. =D
i am pissed
pissed like hell till i can feel the blood in my brain and body is boiling vigorously..
i don't care whoever reads my blog.. i just wanna express out my feelings..
i was so mad at goh for smacking me hard on my forehead and he can even still pretend that it was not a big deal.. yes, i admit i was wrong for smacking him hard and poking him constantly.. i have to be blamed somehow.. but smacked me hard on my forehead till my specs flew off and landed on the table???? hah!!! how do you feel if you were me??? FUCKING PISSED!
i was sooooo pissed at him i don't even want to look at him after that. to make things even worse, he uttered out "do you want it somemore?" fuck you man.. fuck you..
i bet he doesn't even realise how that HURT my feelings..
hahaha..
he thought this is all a joke afterall..merely fun wei.. =D hahahahhaaha XD
i would never think that's a joke, unfortunately..
oh well.. it all depends on how i am able to manage my anger so that i would be able to talk back with him..
ok.. done with him..
after school, we were supposed to have a short meeting for the upcoming orientation for lower sixers. i am in charged of the orientation so i was looking forward to divide the jobs for the rest of the members, tell them what we were supposed to do on that day, what kind of games that we can organize for them and so forth.. while i was speaking halfway, hahaha.. i was being interrupted.. and since then, i've never got the chance to SPEAK at all.. yeah.. great.. i was being neglected.. ignored.. even when i tried to VOICE out my ideas, i was IGNORED again.. yes, i am pissed.. add together with the incident that happened in the morning, i was burning with anger..
i got ignored the first time and i feel it's okay since EVERYONE thinks my idea SUCKS.. fine.. i accept it.. but when i tried to VOICE out for the second time, again ppl IGNORE me. i couldn't manage my anger anymore and hence, i burst out my temper by smacking hard on the table and uttered out "can you all listen to me?"
do i deserve all these huh??? what is wrong with my luck today that i have to face this kind of thing?????????
it seriously cuts a deep wound in my heart that i am being treated this way by ppl.. i don't think i deserve this... NEVER...
i am still pissed and i don't know how long i will take to be able to curb my anger..
2 seriously heartbreaking incidents happened on the very same day.. it is not cool at all..
i am still upset..
gtg... bye..
i don't care whoever reads my blog.. i just wanna express out my feelings..
i was so mad at goh for smacking me hard on my forehead and he can even still pretend that it was not a big deal.. yes, i admit i was wrong for smacking him hard and poking him constantly.. i have to be blamed somehow.. but smacked me hard on my forehead till my specs flew off and landed on the table???? hah!!! how do you feel if you were me??? FUCKING PISSED!
i was sooooo pissed at him i don't even want to look at him after that. to make things even worse, he uttered out "do you want it somemore?" fuck you man.. fuck you..
i bet he doesn't even realise how that HURT my feelings..
hahaha..
he thought this is all a joke afterall..merely fun wei.. =D hahahahhaaha XD
i would never think that's a joke, unfortunately..
oh well.. it all depends on how i am able to manage my anger so that i would be able to talk back with him..
ok.. done with him..
after school, we were supposed to have a short meeting for the upcoming orientation for lower sixers. i am in charged of the orientation so i was looking forward to divide the jobs for the rest of the members, tell them what we were supposed to do on that day, what kind of games that we can organize for them and so forth.. while i was speaking halfway, hahaha.. i was being interrupted.. and since then, i've never got the chance to SPEAK at all.. yeah.. great.. i was being neglected.. ignored.. even when i tried to VOICE out my ideas, i was IGNORED again.. yes, i am pissed.. add together with the incident that happened in the morning, i was burning with anger..
i got ignored the first time and i feel it's okay since EVERYONE thinks my idea SUCKS.. fine.. i accept it.. but when i tried to VOICE out for the second time, again ppl IGNORE me. i couldn't manage my anger anymore and hence, i burst out my temper by smacking hard on the table and uttered out "can you all listen to me?"
do i deserve all these huh??? what is wrong with my luck today that i have to face this kind of thing?????????
it seriously cuts a deep wound in my heart that i am being treated this way by ppl.. i don't think i deserve this... NEVER...
i am still pissed and i don't know how long i will take to be able to curb my anger..
2 seriously heartbreaking incidents happened on the very same day.. it is not cool at all..
i am still upset..
gtg... bye..
Saturday, June 13, 2009
i want more hols!
wth.. today is the end of our 2 week hols! time flies huh??? omgomgomgomg.. i can't believe it!! the beginning of our torturing months starts tmr!! more extra classes which means we have to stay back till 4.30pm every single day!!!!! @___@ no more online, tv, reading novels etc... huhuhu
i'm almost done with ecplise.. will go ahead with breaking dawn asap.. i wanna finish reading all of them by this month.. yeah.. i suppose we won't have any tests this month so there.. i can have a lil time to finish up the novel hahaha...
i miss my classmates.. bwahahha.. hence that triggers me to go to school with anticipation tmr!!
but.. i have not finish my homework!! maths homework fml!! =.=" i couldn't be bothered to finish them up anyway.. feeling so lazy and lethargic and my current obssession is only about twilight saga.. =D
alright.. i gtg now.. expect less update from me from tmr onwards.. guess i won't have the time to come often anymore =D chat with you guys through msn if we so happen to come online at the same time aite? bb..
i'm almost done with ecplise.. will go ahead with breaking dawn asap.. i wanna finish reading all of them by this month.. yeah.. i suppose we won't have any tests this month so there.. i can have a lil time to finish up the novel hahaha...
i miss my classmates.. bwahahha.. hence that triggers me to go to school with anticipation tmr!!
but.. i have not finish my homework!! maths homework fml!! =.=" i couldn't be bothered to finish them up anyway.. feeling so lazy and lethargic and my current obssession is only about twilight saga.. =D
alright.. i gtg now.. expect less update from me from tmr onwards.. guess i won't have the time to come often anymore =D chat with you guys through msn if we so happen to come online at the same time aite? bb..
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
i.am.so.freaking.sick
i.have.not.been.sleeping.since.last.night.
yes.. i've been awake.. since last night.. till now.. 7.03am.. come on?!! what's so wrong with me? i'm so freaking insomniac i tried so hard to force myself to sleep. the more i try, the more anxious i feel.. i've no idea i'm anxious of what.. my hand trembles a lil and my heart beats vigorously.. my head is full of thoughts.. all jumbled up and it was a messed.. gosh~~ my condition is worsen..
=.=""""
my stomach felt a lil uneasy but it felt better after went to toilet and applied some medicine to soothe the pain.. zzz.. =(
my mum would definitely got shocked if i'm telling her i haven't sleep since last night.. =.="
oh well.. whatever it is.. i'll blog a while.. see how it goes.. hopefully my eyes will feel a lil heavy so i can go lie down and have a short nap... i guess..
i'm done with new moon and i've started reading ecplise already.. haha.. my hols is occupied with vampire stories.. kind of addicted already, i guess?=D nowadays when i go out to have a tea break with my friend, we'll go crazy about "omg.. edward wanna kill himself because he thought bella is dead!" or "jacob is in love with bella!" or "bella wants to become vampire or else volturi will kill her themselves!!" haha.. the whole conversation will be all about twilight saga muahahaha XD well, it IS fun to share the same interest with others you know?=D
gosh~ i was thinking about whether this will really affect my studies anot.. i'm supposed to occupy my holiday time to do my homework, do revision bla bla bla.. it's really sickening to think about it cuz i have a whole tons of school stuff to do kay..
thinking about the results i obtained for physics, i'm really wondering whether i could manage to fare in stpm or not.. zzz.. guess what, i merely got a C.. and i really thank god i dint get a F instead.. frankly speaking, i barely studied for physics and i merely flipped through the pages the night before the paper.. no doubt i can't fare well.. it's considered a bless already that i got a C.. lol.. well, it's not something to be celebrated for.. mum wasn't really happy with my results.. =.=" no doubt i've got to try harder..
physics is not hard if you really study and aim for an A for this paper.. unless you're freaking lazy or maybe you've just lost interested to study physics.. i guess??
O_o like.. what the hell??!
the song boom boom pow by BEP is nice eh??=D boom boom pow!!
yes.. i've been awake.. since last night.. till now.. 7.03am.. come on?!! what's so wrong with me? i'm so freaking insomniac i tried so hard to force myself to sleep. the more i try, the more anxious i feel.. i've no idea i'm anxious of what.. my hand trembles a lil and my heart beats vigorously.. my head is full of thoughts.. all jumbled up and it was a messed.. gosh~~ my condition is worsen..
=.=""""
my stomach felt a lil uneasy but it felt better after went to toilet and applied some medicine to soothe the pain.. zzz.. =(
my mum would definitely got shocked if i'm telling her i haven't sleep since last night.. =.="
oh well.. whatever it is.. i'll blog a while.. see how it goes.. hopefully my eyes will feel a lil heavy so i can go lie down and have a short nap... i guess..
i'm done with new moon and i've started reading ecplise already.. haha.. my hols is occupied with vampire stories.. kind of addicted already, i guess?=D nowadays when i go out to have a tea break with my friend, we'll go crazy about "omg.. edward wanna kill himself because he thought bella is dead!" or "jacob is in love with bella!" or "bella wants to become vampire or else volturi will kill her themselves!!" haha.. the whole conversation will be all about twilight saga muahahaha XD well, it IS fun to share the same interest with others you know?=D
gosh~ i was thinking about whether this will really affect my studies anot.. i'm supposed to occupy my holiday time to do my homework, do revision bla bla bla.. it's really sickening to think about it cuz i have a whole tons of school stuff to do kay..
thinking about the results i obtained for physics, i'm really wondering whether i could manage to fare in stpm or not.. zzz.. guess what, i merely got a C.. and i really thank god i dint get a F instead.. frankly speaking, i barely studied for physics and i merely flipped through the pages the night before the paper.. no doubt i can't fare well.. it's considered a bless already that i got a C.. lol.. well, it's not something to be celebrated for.. mum wasn't really happy with my results.. =.=" no doubt i've got to try harder..
physics is not hard if you really study and aim for an A for this paper.. unless you're freaking lazy or maybe you've just lost interested to study physics.. i guess??
O_o like.. what the hell??!
the song boom boom pow by BEP is nice eh??=D boom boom pow!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
i am bored..
yeah. obviously i sound bored right.. every single day i'll update my blog with random things.. anyway!! if i'm not wrong, i've already stated before that i'll update my blog about my trip to melaka right?? oh gosh it's been 3 months ago.. never mind.. better late than never right??
when we were almost reaching my uncle's house, this is what we saw.. looks like sakura huh?? ^^ nice...
then at night time, my uncle brought us to melaka town to visit this.. i dont know what was that.. anyway, the elephants and the stuff there are made of canvas or something.. i dont know.. i dint pay much attention to what my uncle said that day ahhah.. was too busy sms-ing.
this is nice isn't it?? took it with my phone camera and i'm surprise with the image i captured.. not bad eh for a 2 megapixel phone?? lolzz (must change to iphone soon!)
em.. church..
snail?? haha
^^
we took this picture from the other side of the place so that we can get a whole picture of the place.. beaming with lights.. amazing huh?? you should see when the clock striked 12am and the lights just went off.. one by one..
we were taking a break after a long and tiring walk.. and then i noticed that the tiles are quite pretty.. haha.. so there goes another random shot..
uncle brought us to visit this lame mosque (for fun) and my mum said the scenery is quite pretty and the building is unique bla bla so here goes another random shot..
got bored with the same song played again and again in the radio so i plugged my ears with my itouch and was listening to britney spears lol...
and then i realised... it's been so long since i last camwhored with my camera phone wakakakkaa..
these 2 pictures were taken last saturday when i was waiting for my driver to send us to tuition.. zzz.. boring.. another random shots anyway..
now i feel a lil regret cuz i dint take pictures with my classmates last wednesday.. oh.. there's always another time anyway ^^ no regrets...
haha.. ok.. that's all i guess.. i wanna get back to new moon ^^
when we were almost reaching my uncle's house, this is what we saw.. looks like sakura huh?? ^^ nice...
then at night time, my uncle brought us to melaka town to visit this.. i dont know what was that.. anyway, the elephants and the stuff there are made of canvas or something.. i dont know.. i dint pay much attention to what my uncle said that day ahhah.. was too busy sms-ing.
this is nice isn't it?? took it with my phone camera and i'm surprise with the image i captured.. not bad eh for a 2 megapixel phone?? lolzz (must change to iphone soon!)
em.. church..
snail?? haha
^^
we took this picture from the other side of the place so that we can get a whole picture of the place.. beaming with lights.. amazing huh?? you should see when the clock striked 12am and the lights just went off.. one by one..
we were taking a break after a long and tiring walk.. and then i noticed that the tiles are quite pretty.. haha.. so there goes another random shot..
uncle brought us to visit this lame mosque (for fun) and my mum said the scenery is quite pretty and the building is unique bla bla so here goes another random shot..
got bored with the same song played again and again in the radio so i plugged my ears with my itouch and was listening to britney spears lol...
and then i realised... it's been so long since i last camwhored with my camera phone wakakakkaa..
these 2 pictures were taken last saturday when i was waiting for my driver to send us to tuition.. zzz.. boring.. another random shots anyway..now i feel a lil regret cuz i dint take pictures with my classmates last wednesday.. oh.. there's always another time anyway ^^ no regrets...
haha.. ok.. that's all i guess.. i wanna get back to new moon ^^
Sunday, June 7, 2009
i'm waiting for someone
muahaha.. it's just a quote from a chinese song i'm trying to learn and practice so that the next time i go sing k with my pure chinese friends, at least i have one chinese song to choose to sing.. lol.. i won't appear to be too banana-ish then =D
well, read practically 200 pages of new moon yday.. great progress i shall say cuz normally i wouldn't be able to stare at story books for too long.. hahah.. the story is getting more and more interesting thus making me unaware that i've already flipped through 200 pages at one go.. wow.. impressive huh? hahahah.. you should be =D
it's 5.02 in the morning.. i woke up at 12am cuz i slept too early yday night.. around 8-9pm.. crazy huh? something's wrong with my biological clock already..
i'm so bored what else can i do here to occupy my time?? sigh~
well, read practically 200 pages of new moon yday.. great progress i shall say cuz normally i wouldn't be able to stare at story books for too long.. hahah.. the story is getting more and more interesting thus making me unaware that i've already flipped through 200 pages at one go.. wow.. impressive huh? hahahah.. you should be =D
it's 5.02 in the morning.. i woke up at 12am cuz i slept too early yday night.. around 8-9pm.. crazy huh? something's wrong with my biological clock already..
i'm so bored what else can i do here to occupy my time?? sigh~
Saturday, June 6, 2009
i am broke already
guess i've fallen in love with my blog wakkakaa.. the design is so cute and perhaps i'll get bored of it sooner or later cuz i constantly staring at my blog for like few minutes wtf is wrong with me.. guess i was just too bored..
i find that my mind is only active at night.. wtf i'm nocturnal.. no what i meant is.. i'm able to read books at night rather during day time.. well, maybe it's because during day time the weather is like freaking hot and stuffy.. zzzz.. whatever.. i'm talking crap here writing and deleting the sentences again and again cuz i don't know what to write here...
i'm broke already, as the title clearly says.. later i'm going out with my friends again and i'm going to be super broke T__T or is it because the currency is getting smaller year by year?? within 24 hours the money in my purse will be washed away like fast-streaming rivers.... haiz.. bad bad.. how nice if the money can undergo binary fission where it can multiply by itself and then within an hour your purse is already filled with loads of money???? wowwww~~~ simply cool ^^ dreaming dreaming....
i'm just wondering.. am i a good friend to you guys?? i don't know whether my friends are even bothered to read my blog cuz my blog is like super lame and boring and stupid and uninteresting and whatever... but i am just wondering.. do my friends actually think that i'm a good friend?? cuz you know why... nowadays i feel like i treat SOME ppl rather biasly and more often than not i'll show them my temper and well, as usual.. puncture their most-likely fragile heart with my sarcastic remarks when i talk to theml.. haizz... am i really annoying?? like.. really can push ppl's buttons??
like, you know.. some ppl are born to be irritating.. too bad right... it's like.. they are so desperate for attention they will just talk about ANYTHING UNDER THE SUN just to make you TALK with them.. things become worse if they ONLY talk and brag about themselves... and expect you to praise them, like for example, "hey my chinese is so great nobody can beat me!" or "hey my basketball skills are as good as fatty's" bla bla bla... =.="" which the truth is like as though you are comparing the sky and the ground. they are merely losers who play like losers.. zzzz... they will cling on you 24/7 and then suddenly they'll tell the whole universe that they are your best friend, simply because you never reject them and you welcome them "whole-heartedly".... hahahahah.. how do you feel when you encountered such person in your life? will you ignore him or because you felt pity towards that fella, you talk to them just to make sure they never feel left out?? how?? what will you do??
i find that my mind is only active at night.. wtf i'm nocturnal.. no what i meant is.. i'm able to read books at night rather during day time.. well, maybe it's because during day time the weather is like freaking hot and stuffy.. zzzz.. whatever.. i'm talking crap here writing and deleting the sentences again and again cuz i don't know what to write here...
i'm broke already, as the title clearly says.. later i'm going out with my friends again and i'm going to be super broke T__T or is it because the currency is getting smaller year by year?? within 24 hours the money in my purse will be washed away like fast-streaming rivers.... haiz.. bad bad.. how nice if the money can undergo binary fission where it can multiply by itself and then within an hour your purse is already filled with loads of money???? wowwww~~~ simply cool ^^ dreaming dreaming....
i'm just wondering.. am i a good friend to you guys?? i don't know whether my friends are even bothered to read my blog cuz my blog is like super lame and boring and stupid and uninteresting and whatever... but i am just wondering.. do my friends actually think that i'm a good friend?? cuz you know why... nowadays i feel like i treat SOME ppl rather biasly and more often than not i'll show them my temper and well, as usual.. puncture their most-likely fragile heart with my sarcastic remarks when i talk to theml.. haizz... am i really annoying?? like.. really can push ppl's buttons??
like, you know.. some ppl are born to be irritating.. too bad right... it's like.. they are so desperate for attention they will just talk about ANYTHING UNDER THE SUN just to make you TALK with them.. things become worse if they ONLY talk and brag about themselves... and expect you to praise them, like for example, "hey my chinese is so great nobody can beat me!" or "hey my basketball skills are as good as fatty's" bla bla bla... =.="" which the truth is like as though you are comparing the sky and the ground. they are merely losers who play like losers.. zzzz... they will cling on you 24/7 and then suddenly they'll tell the whole universe that they are your best friend, simply because you never reject them and you welcome them "whole-heartedly".... hahahahah.. how do you feel when you encountered such person in your life? will you ignore him or because you felt pity towards that fella, you talk to them just to make sure they never feel left out?? how?? what will you do??
i love my blog
ok i was a lil bit too dumb to realise that i could just revert to classic template and there goes my new blog design ^^ yeah i'm quite happy with it.. i might change to another design whenever i get fed up with the current design.. haha..
it's freaking late already.. it's 1.24am now.. and i'm supposed to read new moon to make sure i'm able to complete my mission, that is to finish reading it by this week.. 500 freaking pages and i'm currently stuck at page 100++ (can't remember the exact number) ah whatever it is.... later i shall get back to new moon ^^
partly i'm still awake now is because.. i can't sleep.. i don't know what is wrong with me.. insomnia perhaps?? haiz.. i'm overly excited and depressed at the same time.. it can be something good.. but it can be something bad also.. i hate to confront this to him.. i dont have the guts to approach him and ask him for the truth.. should i? should i not?? what if things turn out to be the exact opposite?? it might ruin everything.. i don't wanna risk that.. haiz.. but if i don't voice out, i'll be the one who suffer in the end.. what should i do?? haiz...
maybe i shouldn't think too much at the moment.. few more months to go and i think i'm ready to confront him.. yeah. i will confront him when the time approaches.. see how it goes ^^
this is the freaking first time that i feel this way. oh my gosh.. hahaha.. suffocating at times though.. ^^
last wednesday i went to sing k and watch movie with my bunch of classmates.. had fun singing k cuz i was the only one who took charged of the remote control and will not allow anyone to take it from me hahaha... i was so childish >.< terminator was confusing but quite nice.. it was thrilling and full of surprises.. but not to my liking.. i prefer transformers than terminator.. lol..
and something happened when i was in the karaoke room and i think i will not forget about it ^^ hahahahaha.. funny and at the same time.. sweet as candy! =D
alright.. guess i gtg now.. byebye!
it's freaking late already.. it's 1.24am now.. and i'm supposed to read new moon to make sure i'm able to complete my mission, that is to finish reading it by this week.. 500 freaking pages and i'm currently stuck at page 100++ (can't remember the exact number) ah whatever it is.... later i shall get back to new moon ^^
partly i'm still awake now is because.. i can't sleep.. i don't know what is wrong with me.. insomnia perhaps?? haiz.. i'm overly excited and depressed at the same time.. it can be something good.. but it can be something bad also.. i hate to confront this to him.. i dont have the guts to approach him and ask him for the truth.. should i? should i not?? what if things turn out to be the exact opposite?? it might ruin everything.. i don't wanna risk that.. haiz.. but if i don't voice out, i'll be the one who suffer in the end.. what should i do?? haiz...
maybe i shouldn't think too much at the moment.. few more months to go and i think i'm ready to confront him.. yeah. i will confront him when the time approaches.. see how it goes ^^
this is the freaking first time that i feel this way. oh my gosh.. hahaha.. suffocating at times though.. ^^
last wednesday i went to sing k and watch movie with my bunch of classmates.. had fun singing k cuz i was the only one who took charged of the remote control and will not allow anyone to take it from me hahaha... i was so childish >.< terminator was confusing but quite nice.. it was thrilling and full of surprises.. but not to my liking.. i prefer transformers than terminator.. lol..
and something happened when i was in the karaoke room and i think i will not forget about it ^^ hahahahaha.. funny and at the same time.. sweet as candy! =D
alright.. guess i gtg now.. byebye!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
i hate my blog
i tried to make my blog to appear nicer rather than the plain boring blog i used to have.. in the end, everything's gone T___T i dont know what had happened.. can anyone volunteered to do something with my blog???
