Christmassy Blog

the party was a blast!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:36:00 +0000

omgwtfbbq!! it was awesome... =D

reached there around 5.30pm and the sun was blazing hot! and i was already wearing my class t-shirt which is black in colour and the pants i was wearing is black also and the slippers that i was wearing is black in colour too!! and wtf... the bag i'm carrying is black and white in colour wtf.. well, basically i was black in overall LOL....duh~ was nearly burnt to death but luckily i brought an extra baju so i changed and saved myself from the heat LOL...

some of the boys reached earlier than us.. and then chinese boys arrived later.. when it was about 90% of the guys are there, off they go and play BASKETBALL..!! man, basketball and ping pong are the best games for the boys LOL... play until sweat like hell.. LOL..

and the girls... well.. chit chatting under the hot sun cuz we were supposed to take care of their stuffs and bags and handphones and chicken and curry and etc on the mat..

and we went to walk around the hotel and we saw rabbits!!!! dhivya damn sua ku like never seen a rabbit before.. her reaction was eccentric!!!! LOL.. dhivya dhivya...

okay.. so the chefs...

here they are!!! setting up fire on the bbq pit!! all thanks to them or else, we wouldn't be able to savour the good food nom nom nom!=D

party started at around 7pm.. after all of us changed into our uniform LOL.. we were all in black like so cool la... =D

i likey the group photo.. look so pretty and perfect! with the scenery... ^.^

here are the fooooooooood we had.... =D nom nom nom...

nasi goreng cina
curry chicken

jene's grandma's special pumpkin delicacy

cy's kungfu at producing special fruit salad wtf.. LOL..

and oppss!! i forgot to take a picture of our ribena drink!!! LOL.... too indulge in my food d wtf...

pn jahara and pn roshidah

me and mr looi LOL...

there were 3 teachers who came and join us.. they are pn jahara, pn roshidah and mr looi.. LOL.. we invited miss lee and pn tung but they couldn't make it due to certain circumstances la.... it's okay anyway... the guys sapu-ed all the food LOL... especially SURESH! lol.. after makan straight lied down on the mat dengan selambanya... walaoweh damn funny la.. XD

LOOK!!!
hahahahaah...

man... how i enjoyed myself=D

it was a happy and memorable day indeed.. thanks guys!! lets have another party soon!!!=D

take care, you ppl... shall miss our 2 years friendship like FOREVER!~~~

the power of self timer.. but unfortunately the camera was placed too behind, causing the flash to be reflected back from the cement. i'm so sorry... but can you guys see?? all of you have great SMILE on your faces!! gosh~ so perfect.. with genuine happiness... my my.. how i am gonna miss this....?

emo time...~~

OKBYE!!!!

p/s - more pictures on my facebook photos..

school life's OVER baby!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 10 Dec 2009 06:41:00 +0000

omg.. it has been a blast year... form 6 is tough indeed... i'm SO glad it's all over~~~

yay!!!! i can't stop feeling excited about today's party!! weeett!!

will be back here with photos... i hope=D

i.am.so.fucking furious!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 04:06:00 +0000

HI!!!!!! SUCKERS...

in case SOME of YOU who presume yourselves to be my so called friends, yesterday was my birthday.. =D

i am pissed... extremely, to be specific... burning with rage and anger i can feel my blood vessel's gonna explode like anytime!! *touch wood*

i didn't have a grand celebration on my birthday.. cuz.. oh well.. my family had celebrated mine and my 2 other sisters' birthday together on sunday.
yes.. the 3 Lee sisters are born on the same month with only a few days gap.. my birthdate so happen to fall in between my sisters' birthdate, thus,
i got the chance to celebrate on my non-actual birthdate.. cut the crap... celebration aint the thing i wanna say here....

okay... so, birthdays are fairly important to me. to tell you guys the truth. just to let you guys know... i actually TOOK the trouble to remember all of your birthdays (the term "your" means
including my classmates', close friends, etc), wasting my money to send you either a SMS or MMS on exact 0000 hours.. well, with an exception if
i've fallen asleep while waiting for the clock to strike 12am.. but i'll never ever miss a chance of saying "happy birthday"!!!!

so why not you???? is it really troublesome for you guys to wish me? mind you, a simple SMS merely saying Happy Birthday makes my day!
or just drop a short msg on my wall in facebook is enough! but why? why do u guys "forget" about my birthday and pretend
not to know about anything about 08.12? fucking fake la you guys.. fake!!!!!....

okay.. guess i'm not that angry anymore.. but i can't accept that you are my friends anymore.. i can pretend to be friendly towards you but
neh~~~ i don't treat you as my friend anymore..

i'm gonna delete your contact numbers and birthday reminders on my phone etc...

whatever shit you wanna call me... call me childish.. fucking stupid bitch whatever.. am gonna stress again, i am seriously hurt!!!
do these kinds of friends deserve to be your friend? you treat them like they're your BFF but what do you get back in return? BETRAYAL....

so long, suckers! goodbye! i'm so glad school life's finally gonna be over tmr and i don't wanna see your faces anymore... fucking sick and
i wanna vomit when i think about it...

i heart new moon

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 07:14:00 +0000

i watched it first from the internet but the quality was terrible cuz the movie is freaking dark and i can barely see anything but the lights from the werewolves' eyes LOL.. mum brought us to cinema yday and yeah indeed we watched new moon... i love love love love new moon!!! it was fantastic!! AWESOME~ well, probably it's just because of the part when edward proposes to bella, i feel so happy ^.^ LOL.. cuz i was imagining myself is bella..wtf.. but but... i'll accept his proposal right there and then!!!!!! not hesitating like bella does!!!! hmph! heck what i care.. marry marry la.. i'm 19!... legal age what.. lol.. but technically i'm older than edward by 2 years already wtf.....=.="

I LOVE EDWARD CULLENNNNN!!!!!

opppss.. wrong picture... that's my friend reading new moon.. totally not edward cullen muahahahaha XD

yay!!!! kudos to new moon!!!! edward.. muah muahxX LOL... saw this poster at the cinema and i went crazy!!!! i was still holding the change i got after bought the ticket and dropped some money on the floor without noticing it!!!!! luckily there's this malay girl who kindly return my money to me and i thanked her profusely... LOL... the effect of getting addicted to edward cullen aih~~~

jacob appears more than edward in this movie.. the only nice part that i like about jacob is his fit body like wtf... damn fit la!! guys in malaysia either they have 1 pac, 2 pacs, 3 eh no.. there's no way ppl will have odd pacs LOL... 4 pacs, or maximum 6 pacs but jacob has 8 pacs!!!!! i counted okay!! freaking 8! damn fit la... but i still like edward more than jacob... muahahahaha

dakota fanning as jane.. red eye monster.. her power? excruciating PAIN!

one of the scene in new moon where bella got her finger cut and jasper couldn't control the aromatic scent of blood.. hence he went berserk and okay i'm gonna spoil the story.. watch the movie yourself =D

one of the scene from new moon too.. alice claimed that she foresees bella as a vampire.. the whole story will be revealed in breaking dawn.. can't bear to wait for so long to watch bella as a vampire?? READ BREAKING DAWN FUCKING NICE I TELL YOU.. out of the 4 books i like breaking dawn the most... XD

NOOOOOOOO~ I WANT YOU ~~

hmmmmm does he look cute?? this is robert pattinson not edward cullen..
THIS IS EDWARD CULLEN LIKE OMGWTFBBQ!!!! frankly i actually prefer his vampire look than his normal look muahahahaha XD dunno why.. probably because i fell in love with edward and not robert laaaaaaaaaa... LAME.....

BUT BUT... if you guys watch new moon from the cinemas, there are some part that has been censored.. the part when bella asks for a kiss from edward on her bday and when bella saves edward from exposing himself to ppl at italy.. they kiss with loads of passion and i don't think that's over the boundaries for the category "tontonan umum" la... i don't understand why that has to been censored... scared kids will get influence and kiss with their brother or sister like how edward kisses bella??? siao..... ~~~~~

lol.. mum has just commented that this year i've been watching LOADS of movies... it's like.. whatever new movies that come out, i'd never miss them but with an exceptions for some movies that are not my cup of tea... will do a overall review about what movies i've watched this year AFTER my exams.. damn it...

ya.. before that... on tuesday i went to cinema with my classmates and... we watched christmas carol and ninja assassin. xmas carol was... uhm... lame... it's like a bedtime story for those kids below the age of 10??? don't really like the movie but i like the ending.. XD

ninja assassin was .... how should i summarize the whole movie? hmmmm... action movie but stupid... violence everywhere and the blood got spilled everywhere and knives and ninjas and killing and killing and killing until the body becomes half.... continue slashing and killing again and again non stop wtf... rain seorang diri fight with 40-50 ninjas and amazingly able to kill them off... damn crazy la.. =.=" action movie never my cup of tea..

okay gotta go!!=D edward muah muahxxXXX see you in my dreams muahahaha XD

i'm still alive babeh!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 06:18:00 +0000

oh yeah indeed i am.. =D

trying to be optimistic and always look forward and never backwards =D

life is indeed full of surprises.. hence, there's no use of dwelling on things and try to be happy as always =D

i am trying to be happy despite being a lil depressed a few days ago.. hell yeah.. exams indeed can make us feel freaking depressed.. but heck i was thinking!! what's the use of being depressed if you can't change what that has been done right?? what is done is done.. yeah.. =D

still in the midst of exam.. tmr would be my maths paper 2 day which will be on the afternoon hence i can sleep a lil late today and wake up a lil late tmr... =.="

haha.. aite..... just wanna update my poor blog a lil while =D

emoness

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:48:00 +0000

exactly a week to go.. counting down..

practically 2 books down.. virtually 4 more books to go..

damn...

this is what i call emoness..

i have been so depressed these days that i barely can have a good night sleep. i have an anxiety attack every now and then that caused me to feel suffocated.. torturing myself, you might think? yeah... i think so too.. i'm giving myself a lot of pressure. hence here i am online to release a lil of my stress..

just downloaded a few songs from twilight saga movies.. bella's lullaby (edward's song) i love it cuz it makes me feel calm and serene.. but of course.. for merely minutes T__T

listen to it..

ahhh.. fantasy.. if and only if edward cullen does exist in this world.. i'd swear i'd wanna be bella.. T__T

emoness....

on saturday we had this seminar in seremban about pengajian am.. the more i listen to it, the more depressed i feel cuz it's the exact opposite of what my school teacher taught me.. paid rm20 not to prepare myself for stpm but to make myself even worse..

and to make things go even worse, i did not have any sleep that night.. meaning, i was awake the whole night and when morning arise, i prepare myself and off we go to seremban. and amazingly i managed to withstand the tiredness till 11pm. i was awake for freaking 25 hours without any rest.. freaking scary cuz it means that i'm having insomnia due to severe stress...

ahhh.. what a life...

emoness..

baby are u down?

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 08:34:00 +0000

haha.. it's a quote from a song.. new song from jay sean.. our school dj played this song this morning and i like it very much.. try to listen to it..

DOWN

very nice song =D credits to me if you agree with me. shut the hell up if you dont agree.. it just means you dont know how to appreciate good songs =p

oh.. btw.. less than a month to go and it's our big day!!!! =.=" nervous or what?? heck i can still online and check on my farm and restaurant city what the fish?? gonna regret or what.. =.="

i'm looking forward to december 10. that is.... our BIGGEST DAY EVER.. wakakkaaa... farewell party baby!! gosh.. i really need to pay more attention on my books first.. physics.. i need help on physics... T____T

oh! another great news! we've got our class own-designed shirt yesterday and i love it!!! cuz the shirt has my name on it!!!! XD how cool is that??!! anyway, will post the photo of the shirt whenever i'm free, presumely after STPM. i guess i wont have the time to blog anymore.. except to check on my chickens and duck in country story for a short moment wtf......

weird..... i was extremely sleepy this morning and i can almost doze off while talking to ppl.. yet, now i feel energetic as chicken? nah.. chicken aint energetic.. excited electrons ARE energetic...

ok.. whatever..

gtg... stomach ache d... haiz =.="

=D

bye!

short post, i guess

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 12:25:00 +0000

i've been online for almost 3 hours or so.. since restaurant city is down and i've been lingering in front of the pc without doing anything useful, hence, i decided to come update my poor blog awhile la....

i'm having a short holiday ie for merely 4 days! well, better than no hols at all LOL.. but seriously, this year we're having a lil too much hols.. can be quite boring sometimes..

sat for chemistry exam today.. it's trial 2 anyway.. i presume it aint that important thus i dint study much haha.. chemistry paper 2 was hard but guess what??!! luckily when we sat for the paper, it's during our chemistry period.. she discussed some of the questions that we couldn't solve, and.... guess what??? eventually she said it's an open book test!! happy or what??? LOL.. budden, i dont have the time to finish all the questions.. took too much time flipping through the pages to find the answers.. =.="

and i'm so proud of myself lately!! haha.. you know why? my and my few classmates have started group studying! pretty good! as we can have discussion with each other =D hopefully our results will improve after this much of effort.. =D

sitting for physics and maths 2 next week but i just don't have the mood to study.. LOL.. bad or what?? =.=

ok.. i gtg... see ya next time!

21st september 2009

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 17:28:00 +0000

second day of hari raya. what is so special about this date?

went dating with my first boyfriend?

IMPOSSIBLE..

went to have my lunch at the most expensive hotel in Seremban?

NOT A CHANCE!!

went to tuition?

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what am i doing? i'm making fun of myself what the fuck?

ok la.. tell you what.. on the second day of hari raya, me and my ex schoolmates, namely HC, LH, and lynn went to Jusco Seremban 2 to hang out together.. we have not been doing this kind of gathering since FOREVER! so.. yeah! to Jusco we went.. =D

since there's no car.. and i have not been practicising driving since forever.....

we went by bus! it's been a year ++ since the last time i took a bus to Seremban.. well, i got spoilt cuz even though i don't drive i have a few friends who fortunately have valid driving license and cars LOL.. so i have them as drivers and therefore save my money from paying the stupid bus driver who doesn't even care about our safety wtf!!!!!

AHEM!!!!

no la.. i dint mean to say i'm using them to my own advantage laarr... it's just pure convenient cuz we don't have to be sandwiched among other passengers in the bus who have BO!!!!!?!!?!?!! and long dirty hair!!!??!!??!?!?! and foreignerss!!!!??!?!@??@!??# and other more complainssss.. not gonna elaborate more on that... skip...

reached JJ around 11am and we headed straight to Green Box. walao.. so crowded with ppl.. undoubtedly will have loads of ppl during public holidays.. and all the rooms have been fully booked.. so we had no choice but to book for the 2pm session.. ok lor.. we all had no problem with that.. but rm31 per person is a lil too much huh?? hahahah XD

well, we walked around JJ.. dint buy anything cuz i also dont know what to buy.. yah.. i bought magazine only cuz lately i've been quite bored at home and reading breaking dawn is so sien for me d so.. yeah.. i need to read something new..... lol..

funny thing happened when we were having our lunch at kenny rogers lorr... stupid waitress... told LH and HC that MY sandwiches are theirs and THEIR sandwiches are mine!!! stupid right.. i dont know how to differentiate the sandwiches shown in the stupid menu lor.. all looked similar but once reached the table it's like completely different =.=" but i'm lucky cuz according to LH and HC, MY sandwiches consists of only VEGETABLES and cheese slice muahahahaha XD and i'm the lucky one cuz THEIR sandwiches are very delicious.. LOL..... damn funny lor...

haiz.. now i'm doubting whether or not should i return to eat there.. cause so much trouble and embarrass myself nia.. damn~ BUT IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!! kanasai.. the waitresses all like showing their faces to me bloody hell LOL.. beh ta han =.=

ok.. nei mind. i don't mind la.. cuz i dint really scold them and they answered all my questions really politely.. and we paid pull payment so ok lor. deal la right.. duh~

then sing k lor.. damn fun lor i tell you.. i sang the most la... LOL... not really singing also... SCREAMING muahahaha.. scream my lungs out... dont know why i just felt like screaming... release stress kononnya muahahah XD damn stupid.. according to lynn, when i was singing, even the waiter got shocked.. duh~ whatever lar.. i paid rm31 ler.. so my pasal la wanna sing out loud or not right.. duh~

haha..

BEAT IT.. BEAT IT!!! JUST BEAT IT!!

practically MJ's songs all hit songs ler.. haha.. i think i know why lar... after his death only ppl start to appreciate his songs ma.. that's why his songs became hit songs lor... simple logic ^.^

you and me.. together!! NOT ALONE~~~

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after 5pm lynn's brother and mum were in JJ too.. so very kind of lynn's family to fetch us back to pd.. or else we all have to suffer in the bus again wtf...... swear... eh.. better don swear.. PROMISE that i'm not gonna sit bus anymore... damn suffocating.. promise can be broken what.. swear cannot ma... who knows... things might happen that might leads me to take bus again T______T which i really don't want lorr.... T____T damn stupid..

unless i can practice driving until i really can then ok lor.... i can drive lor.. dont know when only la.. ahem...

overall i had fun lar.......

no pictures lar.. wanna see my hideous looking face go look at my facebook there la.. lynn got tagged me... me looking cina amoi with the small eyes and stupid peace sign wtf... i'm criticizing myselffff... =.="

gtg.... wanna sing again...

I WILL BE~~~~~~

by leona lewis..

weet trials's over!!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:39:00 +0000

right after physics paper (which undoubtedly we screwed up pretty badly) , we went erratic!! like, come on!! it's just the last day of trials and we're already feeling the feeling of being free!!

can you imagine how we would feel after we've finished our stpm??!!! wow.. looking forward to that hahahaha.. XD

and i shall skip school on wednesdays!! weet~~~ no more skipping schools on mondays cuz my dad would stil be around and he has been scolding and warning me for skipping school constantly!!

nothing more to blog la so bai!

energy level super low

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 06:04:00 +0000

why am i so down???? i barely have the mood to study right now.. and i'm in deep shit..

i feel sleepy the whole day....

depressed....

heck.. what is wrong with me???!!

back online with short update!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 18:08:00 +0000

i guess i'm spending my free time quite wisely by coming online every hour eh? haha.. so.. i'm back online.. to update my poor blog again.. with some random pictures taken! lol..

as usual.. outing with my buddy at SR.. then out of sudden she said she wanna take pictures lol..
lynn lynn.. and the monkey wtf..

taken by me!!! i asked her to pose with kawaii poses and she failed.. miserably.. lol..
nice eh?? hahaha... she can be my model.. LOL..

we watched movie.. i forgot what movie already.. and cy asked me to accompany him buy new formal shirt for his upcoming installation night.. and he found this!!!!

well, i think he looked great with this shirt hence i took out my phone and snapped him.. and this bloody rude salesgirl stopped me and warned me that i cannot take any pictures in the shop!! in a very rude way!!! ah.... i don wanna talk about it anymore.. not gonna visit that shop again anyway!!!

then!! on... 25th july.. (wooo.. i still remember the date hahahaha cuz my aunt and my cousin from London were scheduled to reach Malaysia on 28th!!) , we went to kl for this taiwan education fair!! pointless, i shall say.. cuz... no 1, i don really understand chinese.. i only know how to speak SIMPLE chinese.. so.. when the counsellor was trying to ask me what course am i taking in the future.. i dont know how to answer her back!!!!! relied on meow shan to do all the talking for me hahahaha!!! i was the dummy that day lol....

then we decided to go for lunch! at the wendy's!! lousy food..

cy ate this burger.. i don know what it's called..

then we saw one ang moh.. alone.. after buying his lunch then he sat down and he took out a book and read!!!! multitasking weh!!! eat and read at the same time!! i thought my mum used to tell me, eat and read at the same time is not good for our digestion?? *shrugs*cy tried to imitate him lol.... only difference he had finished his lunch wakakkaka.. XD and btw, he was reading twilight!! new moon, actually!! lol.....

then the day finally arrived!! my aunt came back from UK with her son!!!

see!!! with rosy cheeks ler!!! and getting chubbier lolz...

we had a lot of random activities like steamboat for dinner, dinner at chinese restaurants, shopping, went to water park and the most fun activity of all... body painting!!!!

like this!!! my aunt painted a dolphin on my left hand and it's so nice!!! tak sampai hati wanna rub it off..

and i painted this myself! lol.. tryna immitate xiaxue's tattoo.. muahahahhaa

pictures below are taken from my mother's cousin's house in segamat.. opposite his house there's a lake and it looks very nice and beautiful.. so.. here they are... =D
take 1
take 2
take 3

take 4
and even the clouds are super nice lor.. see??? hahahahhaha.. budden the weather was very hot on that day.. dint really get the chance to walk around the lake and explore more hahahah XD

ok.. so this isn't a short post after all muahahahah xD what la..

gtg..

new template!!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:03:00 +0000

i'm happie with my new template!!! and i have my own pet fish in my blog now!! and twitter updates!! how cool is that?? *sound erratic*

duh~ i'm so outdated cuz i never knew twitter existed until recently! lol..

do feed my fishes yea!! =D

exam is still on but fortunately the next paper is on next monday so i still have some time today to come online longer than previous days.. duh~ it's just trials anyway nobody cares about your trials results, innit!

i am still happy with my new blog template wtf!!!!

btw.. here's something that i wanna show you today.. saw this when i was browsing randomly..

HERE

watch the video too if you wanna know more.. lolz.. it's so funny that the guy would actually voluntarily let the girl to hit his private part.. doesn't it hurt?? gosh~ i can imagine the pain he felt when she hit him with the high heels.. crazy woman.. wanna whack or SM him do at house or at least in the car ma.. eventually kena caught! haha!! serve her right! she deserves to be humiliated!! a disgrace to all the women... duh!

*am still wondering what on earth am i supposed to do to upload my pictures in twitter!!*

studying kills!!! like. seriously!!! i've been having sleepless nights lately!! indeed it's a terrible feeling cuz i'd be feeling sleepy during the exam.. zzz.. luckily dint fall asleep wakakaka..

*am still wondering should i put the chatbox here in my blog??*

oh ya...!!! stpm falls on the 23rd november!! and ends on 10th december!! that means that on 8th december the exam is still on!!! (although there's no paper on that day!) so not cool lor.. birthday falls on exam week.. instead of celebrating, i have to study like shit.. sigh~ nvm la.. stpm more important than birthday anyway, innit??

haha.. i've still have some pictures in my phone.. so long never update pictures in my blog already.. budden very lazy to upload now lol.. cuz i've been online like.. for 2 hours already now hehehehe..

h1n1 case is getting pretty serious i guess???? i've not been updated with the news since last week!! is it getting better already??

all i know is the weather is getting increasingly hot and i hate it.. sweat until whole body will become sticky.. zzz...

ok.. gtg!! that's all...=D till then!

so many things to do yet so little time~

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 14:59:00 +0000

am listening to ayumi hamasaki's new album.. i love the songs sparkle and new level.. the rest of the songs are like... hmmm.. not my cup of tea..

she's pretty anyway.. i wonder how ppl can actually look so dolly after surgery?? hahahaha..

oh ya.. my title says it all.. my trials is coming in mere 1 week and i'm still here.. online =.=" oh gosh~ i'm so dead... i've been saying this like.. so many times already, didn't it?? hahah.. blame it on my procrastination, i've not done anything.. like zero..!!

i'm pretty frustrated right now too.. i'm really confused on where and which course i'm going to study after my STPM... initially i thought choosing a school and a course is going to be an easy job but i guess it's not after all!!! can cause a lot of headache!! and i wonder whether i'll be homesick if i stay too far away from my family T___T

sigh~ ~ is chemical engineering going to be the right course for me??? i wonder....

i don't wanna regret entering the wrong university and the wrong course..

but what other alternatives have i got?

haiz... can you imagine my frustration???? not about exams but my future plans!!! my goodness... >.<"

anyway! gtg.... bb!

poker face

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 17:42:00 +0000

perhaps i should wear one.. so that i'm able to pretend that i'm happy when i'm not, pretend that i like what you do when the truth is the reverse..

sometimes i feel like being too blunt has its disadvantages.. i shoot ppl with comments that undoubtedly will hurt ppl.. and somemore i'm a very hot-tempered person.. i make remarks on ppl, ppl got angry with me, shoot me back with negative remarks, i got angry, heated argument begins.. sigh~

these few days i'ma little stressed up and i did not have enough sleep.. lack of sleep cause me to behave like a lunatic.. uncontrollable temper and behaviour.. sigh~

because of minor things, i've already started arguing with ppl and some of them gave me silent treatment already.. i hate silent treatment.. ok.. i got it.. i'm the one to be blamed and i've already apologised right there and then. and yet they gave me silent treatment for the whole week.. i felt so angry sigh~~~ nvm.. things will fall back to pieces eventually..

and i hope that i can control my emotion better this time >.<

hope for a better day tmr ^^

and finals is coming.. which is really sickening...

STRESSED~~~

sien mode

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 18:13:00 +0000

it's 2.15am in the morning and i am bored lol.. just finished with my maths 2 revision.. hoho.. tmr's my test wish me luck!!

i guess my blog is slowly turning very dull eh?? very sorry about that.. i barely have the time to blog and besides, i don't have any interesting stories to tell you about.. well, maybe random things if you don't mind them being extraordinary lame.. lol..

ok. so what's happening in my life lately? besides sitting for tests of course.. nothing much actually.. i've got my muet results last week i think.. yeah.. last monday.. and another band 4.. 15 more marks to get a freaking band 5.. was really pissed but oh well.. maybe my english is only within the band 4 range so it's okay.. wakaka.. satisfactory english la, it means..

stpm trials' coming on the 17th august.. which is like.. less than a month to go.. =_______= super stress..

and i feel really bad for one particular lower six girl.. she's totally innocent.. but unfortunately she sets a very bad impression to me.. her mouth constantly moves and it scares me to death.. she's super talkative like.. practically when i bump onto her she'll be 10000% talking with her friends!!! and she talks with very loud voice.. =.=" super annoying.. and she's pretty rude.. i don't like her that much..

so i complained about her to my classmates.. and my friend told me that her family actually sells chicken rice in lukut one.. i've never been to lukut to eat the chicken rice there so i'm not sure where her shop is.. but it seems like her business very good one leh! must buy early or else ppl will sapu habis..

so.. once we heard she sells chicken rice.. we started to make fun of her.. for example, we teased her that she cuts the chicken with a knife expertly *can you imagine?* and she can perform LIVE in school for everyone to envy her skills.. and there was once when we passed by her, my friend will purposely mention out loud that "hey! i feel like eating chicken rice la!" at first i was kinda blur.. why on earth suddenly she wants to eat chicken rice??? then, when i went back to class and thought about it, finally i realise it's actually a sarcasm lol... very naughty right my friends...

and we nicknamed her "ji fan po" aka chicken rice girl......

then... i think the girl realised that we constantly tease her.. she'll suddenly turn silent when we pass by her.. and once she showed us her kelian look face.. mak oi... =.=" i feel so guilty for being such a bad person..

maybe she suspects that i'm the one who started all these.. cuz once she looks at me with one kind.. maybe it's bcuz i have the bad girl look eh?? =.=" sigh~~~ like wtf....

i aint gonna laugh at her no more.... she's nobody to me, why should i even bother making fun of innocent ppl right....

and talking about scolding bad words.. why is it normal for guys to scold "kan nin ne ma chao chee buy!!!" or "what the 'lin' you want?" or "ma de.. want kena diao is it?" but when they heard girls scold "ta ma de" or "chou chee dan" or "ka na sai" or maybe sometimes the girl will scold "kan nin ne or ma hai" lol they'll think that "omg.. that girl is super chu lu or rough..." wth la very unfair right... no no.. i'm not saying that girls should scold bad words la... that will also give a very bad impression to other ppl but still... it's unfair lor... =.="

actually i'm that "girls" that i mentioned above la lol.. that day got scolded by my friend that i'm very rough and should behave more like a girl.. last time when somebody scolded me like that i'm not bothered to care about it but this particular friend's critisism made me realise... "hell yeah.. i'm too rough to be true" lolzzz... moment of realization see?? =D wakaka.. never too late to realise one's mistake, ya know?

connection's pretty bad huh?? constantly have errors one..

oh ya!!! this friday i'm going to watch harry potter weeeee~~~!! =D happy happy wakaka...

can't wait for friday to come ^^

and this saturday i'm going to taiwan!!!!!!... education fair la.. lol... in kl.. after that will visit midvalley weee~~~

my my.. my schedule is full this week.. lol.. anyone wanna ask me out for tea must make an appointment with me first ya lolzz... jkjk.. i'm not that busy la.. just exaggerating wtf....

ok.. gtg.. been writing a lot.. wakakka.. till next post!! chao!!

michael jackson is dead.. so what?

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 14:28:00 +0000

he's dead for days already.. and i couldn't be bothered about it.. i mean, why should i? he's not even my idol and i hated him for child molestation and all those plastic faces especially his nose... and my dad expected me to cry after hearing about his death? hell.. why should i??

i made faces when i told my dad that i hated michael jackson and i don't care about anything related to him.. my dad got angry cuz it seems like he's a big fan of that singer and his daughter is a hater of that singer.. thus.. conflict occurs.. hence, no more pocket money from him unless i apologise to him about my attitude towards him that day..

these days i'm really good at showing my temper to everyone. i got irritated very easily.. and i'm extremely blunt and sarcastic with my words when i got irritated.. sigh~ so sick and tiring to control my temper..

yday was the blood donation day and quite a number of ppl donated their blood and in the end they came to school feeling weak and some looked like they are going to faint anytime.. some got fever.. teacher suspected is H1N1 cuz that particular student has several symptoms that we can relate to swine flu.. ugh~~ the world is getting scarier day by day..... with all these viral infections and so forth.. gosh~

4 more months to go.. STPM is approaching damn it..

i love transformers!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 07:05:00 +0000

lol.. transformers' really good! i went to watch it last friday with my fellow classmates.. haha.. too bad i missed a few minutes of the movie.. zzz.. that time i couldn't resist myself from the cold and i wanted to do something really urgent so.... well..

wanted to watch again yday and today and damn it. as expected.. it's either full house or the seats are just far too front and your neck will definitely break if you're watching from that angle.. so.. well.. next week only watch la lol...

i love the sound track from transformers!! new divide by linkin park.. very cool song.. and addictive hahaha.. until my uncle asked me why keep on listening to the song again and again.. lolzz.... =.=

and megan fox is superbly sexy.. like hell.. no.. i aint a lesbian.. but seriously.. she's hot like hell.. ya ya.. i'm jealous like hell too.. lol..

bumblebee is cute!! i love bee!! bee, i love u!! he's so strong and so protective and loving!! gosh~ how can we not fall in love with bee right??=D

i wanna watch again!! yay!! couldn't wait!!! next week!! transformers again!! wee~~ heheheh.. bye!!

guess my luck is just bad afterall

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 12:06:00 +0000

i had enough bad luck last week. i wanted to forgive and forget about everything that had happened. they've been such a bad memories but oh well.. what can i say but to learn how to be a forgiving and a patient person..

yday it was the orientation for the lower sixers.. the orientation would be perfect. if and only if we are allowed to run it longer rather than just having less than 1 hour to conduct all the games.. received destructive comments from both teachers and students.. saying that we do not have proper time management and so on.. sigh~ what do you expect? it's not even our fault as we never expect teachers would take so much time to talk nonsense during the assembly and thus used up our time.. sigh~~

one particular teacher is pointing finger at me.. saying i'm all to be blamed.. saying i'm not supposed to let the rest of the members to come out with the games.. which means i actually have to do ALL the plannings and the games and so on.. and the rest of the members are supposed to accept my order.. she made it sound like it's so simple.. well, it's always easier said than done right????

does the teacher seriously think i have so much time to come out with 10 games for 10 different checkpoints?? does the teacher seriously think the rest of the members wouldn't hate me if i dominate all the work ALL by myself???

i just don't wanna get myself into trouble.. i've got enough of receiving criticism by some random ppl that i'm obsess of power and saying that i'm trying to take over corina's post as a president.. gosh~~ why ppl's mouth can be so mean?? sigh~

i'm so tired of all these shit...

when will i have the luckiest day of my life?

i had enough of bad days.. out you go, bad luck!!! get out of my life!!!

i am trying

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 12:34:00 +0000

why are ppl showing me their temper today??

what have i done??

even my mum is showing me her temper today.. as though i'm all to be blamed???

why is that??

why is it so difficult for ppl to forgive and forget when i can actually do forgive and forget about everything that has happened??

i'm so impressed with myself sometimes i can just pretend NOTHING has happened even though SOMETHING HURTFUL did happen. i can still pretend i'm totally ok about it.. so why don't you??

why do i have to be blamed all the time? why is that??

everything happens for a reason.. but i have no idea why god lets this kind of thing to happen in my life.. probably it's just a test for me to make sure that i've learned how to control my temper and emotions and words now.. guess i've not entirely pass god's test huh?? well, it takes time for a person to change, isn't it??

it's not that i'm not trying.. i am indeed trying very hard to change myself already.. trying very hard not to be oversensitive on something really minor, trying not to lose my temper in front of ppl and etc.

it's really sickening sometimes that i've got to take all the blame.. as though i'm born with the word "punching bag" on my head..

stupid..

i feel much better

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 13:24:00 +0000

after crying out loud.. indeed it helps.. =D

all the stress.. burden.. have been washed away by the tears..

hope for a better tmr.. =D

i am pissed

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 10:43:00 +0000

pissed like hell till i can feel the blood in my brain and body is boiling vigorously..

i don't care whoever reads my blog.. i just wanna express out my feelings..

i was so mad at goh for smacking me hard on my forehead and he can even still pretend that it was not a big deal.. yes, i admit i was wrong for smacking him hard and poking him constantly.. i have to be blamed somehow.. but smacked me hard on my forehead till my specs flew off and landed on the table???? hah!!! how do you feel if you were me??? FUCKING PISSED!

i was sooooo pissed at him i don't even want to look at him after that. to make things even worse, he uttered out "do you want it somemore?" fuck you man.. fuck you..

i bet he doesn't even realise how that HURT my feelings..

hahaha..

he thought this is all a joke afterall..merely fun wei.. =D hahahahhaaha XD

i would never think that's a joke, unfortunately..

oh well.. it all depends on how i am able to manage my anger so that i would be able to talk back with him..

ok.. done with him..

after school, we were supposed to have a short meeting for the upcoming orientation for lower sixers. i am in charged of the orientation so i was looking forward to divide the jobs for the rest of the members, tell them what we were supposed to do on that day, what kind of games that we can organize for them and so forth.. while i was speaking halfway, hahaha.. i was being interrupted.. and since then, i've never got the chance to SPEAK at all.. yeah.. great.. i was being neglected.. ignored.. even when i tried to VOICE out my ideas, i was IGNORED again.. yes, i am pissed.. add together with the incident that happened in the morning, i was burning with anger..

i got ignored the first time and i feel it's okay since EVERYONE thinks my idea SUCKS.. fine.. i accept it.. but when i tried to VOICE out for the second time, again ppl IGNORE me. i couldn't manage my anger anymore and hence, i burst out my temper by smacking hard on the table and uttered out "can you all listen to me?"

do i deserve all these huh??? what is wrong with my luck today that i have to face this kind of thing?????????

it seriously cuts a deep wound in my heart that i am being treated this way by ppl.. i don't think i deserve this... NEVER...

i am still pissed and i don't know how long i will take to be able to curb my anger..

2 seriously heartbreaking incidents happened on the very same day.. it is not cool at all..

i am still upset..

gtg... bye..

i want more hols!

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 05:30:00 +0000

wth.. today is the end of our 2 week hols! time flies huh??? omgomgomgomg.. i can't believe it!! the beginning of our torturing months starts tmr!! more extra classes which means we have to stay back till 4.30pm every single day!!!!! @___@ no more online, tv, reading novels etc... huhuhu

i'm almost done with ecplise.. will go ahead with breaking dawn asap.. i wanna finish reading all of them by this month.. yeah.. i suppose we won't have any tests this month so there.. i can have a lil time to finish up the novel hahaha...

i miss my classmates.. bwahahha.. hence that triggers me to go to school with anticipation tmr!!

but.. i have not finish my homework!! maths homework fml!! =.=" i couldn't be bothered to finish them up anyway.. feeling so lazy and lethargic and my current obssession is only about twilight saga.. =D

alright.. i gtg now.. expect less update from me from tmr onwards.. guess i won't have the time to come often anymore =D chat with you guys through msn if we so happen to come online at the same time aite? bb..

i.am.so.freaking.sick

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 23:02:00 +0000

i.have.not.been.sleeping.since.last.night.

yes.. i've been awake.. since last night.. till now.. 7.03am.. come on?!! what's so wrong with me? i'm so freaking insomniac i tried so hard to force myself to sleep. the more i try, the more anxious i feel.. i've no idea i'm anxious of what.. my hand trembles a lil and my heart beats vigorously.. my head is full of thoughts.. all jumbled up and it was a messed.. gosh~~ my condition is worsen..

=.=""""

my stomach felt a lil uneasy but it felt better after went to toilet and applied some medicine to soothe the pain.. zzz.. =(

my mum would definitely got shocked if i'm telling her i haven't sleep since last night.. =.="

oh well.. whatever it is.. i'll blog a while.. see how it goes.. hopefully my eyes will feel a lil heavy so i can go lie down and have a short nap... i guess..

i'm done with new moon and i've started reading ecplise already.. haha.. my hols is occupied with vampire stories.. kind of addicted already, i guess?=D nowadays when i go out to have a tea break with my friend, we'll go crazy about "omg.. edward wanna kill himself because he thought bella is dead!" or "jacob is in love with bella!" or "bella wants to become vampire or else volturi will kill her themselves!!" haha.. the whole conversation will be all about twilight saga muahahaha XD well, it IS fun to share the same interest with others you know?=D

gosh~ i was thinking about whether this will really affect my studies anot.. i'm supposed to occupy my holiday time to do my homework, do revision bla bla bla.. it's really sickening to think about it cuz i have a whole tons of school stuff to do kay..

thinking about the results i obtained for physics, i'm really wondering whether i could manage to fare in stpm or not.. zzz.. guess what, i merely got a C.. and i really thank god i dint get a F instead.. frankly speaking, i barely studied for physics and i merely flipped through the pages the night before the paper.. no doubt i can't fare well.. it's considered a bless already that i got a C.. lol.. well, it's not something to be celebrated for.. mum wasn't really happy with my results.. =.=" no doubt i've got to try harder..

physics is not hard if you really study and aim for an A for this paper.. unless you're freaking lazy or maybe you've just lost interested to study physics.. i guess??

O_o like.. what the hell??!

the song boom boom pow by BEP is nice eh??=D boom boom pow!!

i am bored..

noreply@blogger.com (Joanna Lee) — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 11:49:00 +0000

yeah. obviously i sound bored right.. every single day i'll update my blog with random things.. anyway!! if i'm not wrong, i've already stated before that i'll update my blog about my trip to melaka right?? oh gosh it's been 3 months ago.. never mind.. better late than never right??

when we were almost reaching my uncle's house, this is what we saw.. looks like sakura huh?? ^^ nice...
then at night time, my uncle brought us to melaka town to visit this.. i dont know what was that.. anyway, the elephants and the stuff there are made of canvas or something.. i dont know.. i dint pay much attention to what my uncle said that day ahhah.. was too busy sms-ing.

this is nice isn't it?? took it with my phone camera and i'm surprise with the image i captured.. not bad eh for a 2 megapixel phone?? lolzz (must change to iphone soon!)

em.. church..

snail?? haha
^^
we took this picture from the other side of the place so that we can get a whole picture of the place.. beaming with lights.. amazing huh?? you should see when the clock striked 12am and the lights just went off.. one by one.. we were taking a break after a long and tiring walk.. and then i noticed that the tiles are quite pretty.. haha.. so there goes another random shot..

uncle brought us to visit this lame mosque (for fun) and my mum said the scenery is quite pretty and the building is unique bla bla so here goes another random shot..

got bored with the same song played again and again in the radio so i plugged my ears with my itouch and was listening to britney spears lol...

and then i realised... it's been so long since i last camwhored with my camera phone wakakakkaa..
these 2 pictures were taken last saturday when i was waiting for my driver to send us to tuition.. zzz.. boring.. another random shots anyway..

now i feel a lil regret cuz i dint take pictures with my classmates last wednesday.. oh.. there's always another time anyway ^^ no regrets...

haha.. ok.. that's all i guess.. i wanna get back to new moon ^^